A needle in a haystack doesn't begin to describe the difficulty of locating Hawke. In fact, it's only possible because Anders knows at least which haystack he's got to check. She left the station when they'd stopped at Xestsemon; that's where she's got to be. Unless she took ship from there, somehow. Unless she's found more resources than he has any idea how to lay hands on, and Hawke's always been notably resourceful.
It's a starting place, at any rate. The only place to start, so that's the place he starts, when the time's good and ripe, when the station comes back round to Xestsemon again.
How has he weathered her absence? A better question might be, why does Anders come after Hawke at all? Her leaving's always been a foregone conclusion, to Anders. What he didn't expect was that she'd make it such a severe break, removing herself entirely from the scene. When she's been gone long enough that he can think more rationally about it, he decides it makes perfect sense. The fight against the Fay'lia was never her fight, only a cause to which she lent her arms for a while, for lack of any better project to tackle, and because she's never been one to sit idle. It's been Anders' cause, though, ever since waking in a blighted pod. He needs a cause if he's going to keep on keeping on, and he needs to believe he's been brought into the Void for an important purpose, otherwise it would be just another abduction, unremarkable in a life marked by several forcible removals to places he didn't choose or want to go. Unacceptable. He took in Justice to ensure that would never happen again. No more conscriptions. No more imprisonment.
He lets Hawke go. She didn't give him a choice. If he'd had a choice, he would have let her go anyhow, which he supposes might be half of why she left. He throws his energies and efforts into the unsatisfiable Void that is a resistance movement against a multiversal empire, impossibly long odds, impossibly slow progress. The periodic missions onto various planets of differing allegiance are what keep Justice from chafing the way he did in Kirkwall. Between missions they float in a soothing cocoon of vacuum, like the Fade, a place where time doesn't seem to pass and nothing much changes.
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Date: 2012-01-21 10:01 pm (UTC)A needle in a haystack doesn't begin to describe the difficulty of locating Hawke. In fact, it's only possible because Anders knows at least which haystack he's got to check. She left the station when they'd stopped at Xestsemon; that's where she's got to be. Unless she took ship from there, somehow. Unless she's found more resources than he has any idea how to lay hands on, and Hawke's always been notably resourceful.
It's a starting place, at any rate. The only place to start, so that's the place he starts, when the time's good and ripe, when the station comes back round to Xestsemon again.
How has he weathered her absence? A better question might be, why does Anders come after Hawke at all? Her leaving's always been a foregone conclusion, to Anders. What he didn't expect was that she'd make it such a severe break, removing herself entirely from the scene. When she's been gone long enough that he can think more rationally about it, he decides it makes perfect sense. The fight against the Fay'lia was never her fight, only a cause to which she lent her arms for a while, for lack of any better project to tackle, and because she's never been one to sit idle. It's been Anders' cause, though, ever since waking in a blighted pod. He needs a cause if he's going to keep on keeping on, and he needs to believe he's been brought into the Void for an important purpose, otherwise it would be just another abduction, unremarkable in a life marked by several forcible removals to places he didn't choose or want to go. Unacceptable. He took in Justice to ensure that would never happen again. No more conscriptions. No more imprisonment.
He lets Hawke go. She didn't give him a choice. If he'd had a choice, he would have let her go anyhow, which he supposes might be half of why she left. He throws his energies and efforts into the unsatisfiable Void that is a resistance movement against a multiversal empire, impossibly long odds, impossibly slow progress. The periodic missions onto various planets of differing allegiance are what keep Justice from chafing the way he did in Kirkwall. Between missions they float in a soothing cocoon of vacuum, like the Fade, a place where time doesn't seem to pass and nothing much changes.