The kiss they share is soothing. But he can't help but to start thinking about so many other things. So many other mistakes he hasn't apologized about. He's spent so long talking about not questioning the future, that he never bothered to look back very closely. And Crowley, despite everything, always forgave him, always came back to him. But he's still wondering, now, if that's fair. It comes up, some times, when he does look back.
"I didn't know." He admits, not without some struggle. "I don't think I realized until...until time had passed. There was so much to do, so much to see, and work, but..." But he had been so angry about it. No, he'd been...hurt. He'd been scared. He didn't know how to handle the situation except to step out of it. But even when he found a kind hear to talk to - Oscar often lent his -, he could still never truly explain what happened. (But the things his friend said - they didn't sat well with him, either. Not then. He'd stopped talking about it.)
Oh, no. He's started, he realizes - he's said too much, and he doesn't know how he got here. Despite Crowley's gentleness, despite what really started this conversation, the angel still wonders what he might think of him. "I took so much for granted." He shouldn't dig any deeper than this.
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Date: 2020-04-02 10:12 pm (UTC)"I didn't know." He admits, not without some struggle. "I don't think I realized until...until time had passed. There was so much to do, so much to see, and work, but..." But he had been so angry about it. No, he'd been...hurt. He'd been scared. He didn't know how to handle the situation except to step out of it. But even when he found a kind hear to talk to - Oscar often lent his -, he could still never truly explain what happened. (But the things his friend said - they didn't sat well with him, either. Not then. He'd stopped talking about it.)
Oh, no. He's started, he realizes - he's said too much, and he doesn't know how he got here. Despite Crowley's gentleness, despite what really started this conversation, the angel still wonders what he might think of him. "I took so much for granted." He shouldn't dig any deeper than this.