He is silent a long time, and when he speaks, his voice is quieter than his wont.
"I fear the Dark. The Void, I suppose. I know we are going to fail. We are setting ourselves against one of the Powers themselves, even fallen - how exactly are we supposed to win? Alqualonde demonstrated that the Oath was ill wrought, and will become only more so with time, and yet we cannot break it. Even now, I can feel it gnaw at me, although all of us have become practised at ignoring it - we are none of us keen to replace Maedhros in Thangorodrim! But if we fulfil it not, tis the Everlasting Dark for us, and that... that, I fear. I have known Unlight, Haleth, and the Void must be infinitely worse."
He shrugs awkwardly. "As to things that I have sought... I was always... the odd one. It's in my mothername, even - imagine, if you will, having brothers named for their beauty, for their skill... and yours is no more than a reference to your tendency to blush. I have a temper. I dislike crowds, and yet as a prince I was required to be in them, frequently. Amongst my brothers I do not stand out, and so was often passed over. Only in embroidery was I ever able to find some peace."
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"I fear the Dark. The Void, I suppose. I know we are going to fail. We are setting ourselves against one of the Powers themselves, even fallen - how exactly are we supposed to win? Alqualonde demonstrated that the Oath was ill wrought, and will become only more so with time, and yet we cannot break it. Even now, I can feel it gnaw at me, although all of us have become practised at ignoring it - we are none of us keen to replace Maedhros in Thangorodrim! But if we fulfil it not, tis the Everlasting Dark for us, and that... that, I fear. I have known Unlight, Haleth, and the Void must be infinitely worse."
He shrugs awkwardly. "As to things that I have sought... I was always... the odd one. It's in my mothername, even - imagine, if you will, having brothers named for their beauty, for their skill... and yours is no more than a reference to your tendency to blush. I have a temper. I dislike crowds, and yet as a prince I was required to be in them, frequently. Amongst my brothers I do not stand out, and so was often passed over. Only in embroidery was I ever able to find some peace."